I still have to pinch myself

Reflections

As I enter my 3rd alcohol free (AF) year, this picture is on my mind. I feel so sad when I see this and I just want to give her a hug, but from this came life, a life I didn’t know possible.

this was me defeated on 1/1/17

Here is me almost exactly 3 years ago to the hour. Sad, broken and scared of sobriety, but done with living life the way I was, something had to change.

I guess I better introduce myself

Hi I’m Vicki.

I’ve thought long and hard about this blog, and I’m still not convinced anyone is that interested in some Yorkshire birds journey into sobriety, but I feel a need to record my story. Its been life changing and I thought for a long time impossible. Yet, here I am living the impossible life.

Can I live without wine o’clock?

Turns out not only can I live without mummy’s wine time, I can thrive! When I thrive so does my family, and basically anything I put my mind to becomes easier. I used to think I was doing OK, decent job, nice home, happy children (so I thought). But everything, truly has improved, since the beer blur that was in my life has been removed.

Sobriety is the gift that keeps on giving

It takes work to be happy in sobriety, but lets face it drinking takes work too, thinking about when where and how much we drink takes up brain space, then recovering from said drinking takes time and makes life hard work. I used to find thinking up excuses to drink pretty tiring too in an already busy brain

So actually working on your sobriety could technically be easier, easier than dragging your sorry hungover ass around, trying to live life.

I still have to pinch myself that I am free from my nightly wine habit,and behind that freedom, came happiness.

Committed

I commit to writing my blog at least once a month! Its written here and on my list of 2020 goals that I placed in our gratitude jar (yes I am that person these days), so I guess I am obligated now.

the family gratitude jar

Its lighthearted

While my message is serious, and I take my sobriety seriously, I do not take myself too seriously, I am a normal divorced (more of that later) mum of three girls, who found a better way to get through this one precious life we live.

If you’re heading into dry January good luck, you might just be surprised, if you’re sober curious, keep researching, its worth it I promise

Vicki x